Month: October 2005

Week 12 in SFSU

It felt like autumn when I stepped out of the Science building at San Francisco State University. There weren’t many people in the campus that afternoon, not that it made a difference. They felt invisible, and didn’t add companionship to what was the loneliest walk home in my life.

Just an hour ago I had visited Dr. Bruce Paton to get feedback on my recent work on business opportunities in the rural poor. It was a rough framework combining very elementary models into a toolkit for entrepreneurs to map co-creation of value.

His squinted eyes were fixed on my laptop screen. He was very still, right before he leapt forward. He didn’t literally do that, but it seemed that way as he caught me by surprise. He muttered, “Khailee, I think you’re on to something here.”

He probed deeper into my suggestions, and I explained it the best I could. We lunged into passionate discussion regarding the few value chain analysis, business process re-engineering and service delivery models I combined, and about possible directions I could take. We exchanged many questions, perspectives, and were left with many better, more incisive questions. I also had a few of his books to take home.

So there I was, initially smiling. I was more excited than I have ever been in a long time. I grew up with ‘enjoying studying is NOT cool’… which amplified how I have never been able to speak to ANYONE about the one thing I recently grew to love: business literature. I had found a friend.

As I walked further away from his office, the ringing vehemence of our discussion grew more and more faint, with a dull silence taking its place… a silence I will have to endure till the next time we meet.

You see, I wanted to talk more about entrepreneurial management. I wanted to explore the role of marketing and human resources in today’s enterprise. Is anyone listening? I looked at the faces of strangers passing by… they didn’t seem any more interested than friends who knew me well whenever I brought these topics up in casual conversation.

I knew I would walk back to my darling housemates Michiko, Shimal and Mark, who would laugh and chatter away in concert with the television in the background. I would talk to them too, but the noise will not help break the dull silence, as I was somewhere else, disconnected.

Worse, what if this trend continued? What if I worked on a phD based on what we spoke of? Bruce told me I should. No doubt I will find people sharing that specialised interest, I can imagine further separation from my loved ones who do not.

Of course I could have countless other interests and means to connect to other people, but I guess being interested in something nobody else really is can get pretty lonely.

Many nights later, when it gets quiet, I would be on the internet (just like tonight) searching for something to read, commenting in forums and blogs, hoping to connect.

I have since decided, inevitably walking very far down one road doesn’t mean I can’t appreciate the beauty beyond me, and a balanced mix of very good friends would make whatever road I take widely accessible. Then, I would never be alone in my walk.

This may be why Analects of Confucius’s first two lines are:
“Is it not pleasant to learn with a constant perseverance and application?
“Is it not delightful to have friends coming from distant quarters?

Special thanks to Dominique Pfrang, Vincent Zhou, Philip Sun, Davy Lufting, Tobias Bjorklund, Wong Yu-Ri, and of course Dr. Bruce Paton.

Favourite quote of all time~!

“The future is here. It’s just not evenly distributed yet.” – William Gibson

I assume by the time any indication of ‘the future’ is evenly distributed, you would call it ‘the present’. Perhaps why hardly anyone agrees with true innovators until things become blithering obvious… they are too far away from the ‘mean’ (where everyone else feels comfortable hanging out at).

Like innovators, lunatics hang out at the end of the bell curve (tho other end), and some also hang out at Tanjung Rambutan (location of a famous Malaysian mental institution, Hospital Bahagia) =p

Somebody gets it worse

Ooh just when I started to complain… Somebody gets it worse. Check out his account of a fun, clean night in Soda interrupted by corrupt police nabbing his ass from Sri Hartamas, showing it to everyone in Pudu.

I am very sorry it happened to him.
My honest honest comments at theCICAK.

Btw, a similiar case happened to a bunch of my friends, and poor me has to wake up at 4am to bail their jailhouse ass… but they were kinda on ecstacy… so they probably deserved a bit more torture muahahah serves them right! Drugs is BADDDDD…

Revolutionary Technology won’t be Revolutionising Malaysia anytime soon…

I was reading Fortune on a plane and came across this, but gave it no second thought… but seeing it again makes me wonder… if only Malaysia can be like this NOW…

For those who are too disabled to click on the link, Jambo is geo-centric matchmaking (social/business/whatever)… walk around with your wireless device, and see others around you who share common interests/ have relevant queries… you can then choose to IM them and meet straight away!

Can the same function Jambo provides be replicated on current mobile networks, using simple software running on today’s mobile phone software architecture?

If so, it will give access to enough users to make me wanna pay for this service here… and this, I believe, is a killer app… one of those things when adopted by masses, will be something no one can imagine living without… just imagine the applications of such a service…


Eek I killed theCICAK~!

I feel horrible. theCICAK is still offline as I type this. I was making backups of the MySQL database and putting up a test blog when my power got cut. I got back on to see the files and databases in order, but not communicating… all this is beyond me. I’ve contacted the relevant techies I just hope they fix it…

Discovery of the month!!!

Opensource business models, like wikipedia, but for entrepreneurs and wannabes like me~!! hoorah

I clicked on ‘models’ and half of all the new models are centred on the music industry… is that a coincidence, or is it because traditional music industry models don’t work for everyone? Check out the site NOW!!

And it’s no wonder Lawrence Lessig is on the advisory board!
If anyone knows anyone who can help set up a Malaysian partner let me know… I wish I wish I wish I was on one of these exciting mind bending projects!

Working on New Design..

Ok I am building a new theme… I intend to seperate my site into 2 parts, one ‘professional’ part, and one journal blog thingy. Gonna get more graphical too, this site is boring the daylight outta me.

By the way, I recovered all my data for RM50 and like a hundred trips down to KL. Even more absurd… my crashed hard disk is working again…