Confessions I have to make

Lately, a few write-ups and incidents have left me feeling somewhat ahead of myself. Pretentious. I’m not suggesting that the recent publicity/ newspaper write-ups etc have been misleading. Not at all…

You see, I am a small fry gunning for big dreams.

IMG_m1363Not some big shot.

However, due to the unconventional fashion of “my work”, it is pretty easy for anyone to reach a conclusion far off from the truth. Either I’m doing a lot of great things, or just a lot of crap ;P

Do I care about what people think?

Confession #1

Yes, of course I do. And I should.

This year, the Malaysian media will play a big part in my projects, and it would make me even more uncomfortable if my story gets exaggerated, or misrepresented in any way.

Along these lines, I’ve observed, first-hand, how “putting your best foot forward” can sometimes lead to “crossing the line”.

Hence, I want to do my part to come clean with myself, and what I do.

Fact or Fiction?

Khailee is an “entrepreneur” who runs many “businesses”

Um, what is an “entrepreneur”?

The simplistic view suggests “someone who starts his own businesses”.

However, the modern understanding extends a bit beyond that. Read more about this is in Wikipedia and in an article I wrote over 2 years ago.

So what does that make me?

On one hand I do not “own my own office”, hire full-time staff, or have a big company in my name.

I simply do not.

However, I’m involved in a couple of ventures as a shareholder.

I’ll begin with MindValley.

I started off as a typical employee.

Today, I’m involved with them on 3 levels:

  1. I own shares in MindValley.
  2. I’m also paid to work on the various projects within MindValley.
  3. Bunch Out is own my venture, and I co-own this with MindValley.

If we were in tune with Silicon Valley lingo, I might be labeled an “entrepreneur-in-residence” or EIR. In simple terms, it is used when Venture Capitalists pay someone in salary and shares, to start and grow businesses.

But there are other EIR arrangements. See Wikipedia or the blog of some other EIR.

About Bunch Out, I may spin it off as my own company – depending on it’s success. I will also be hiring interns / employees for that one, and will announce that soon.

About my other “businesses”… I co-founded theCICAK.com with Poh Si Teng, but it is not a registered non-profit (yet). All the money we make from theCICAK is used to fund operations and writing competitions. No one pockets anything privately.

I also co-founded Project Bazooka – but it owned under YuRi’s company, and we are in the process of transferring its ownership to volunteers.

Both ventures have gained noteworthy influence and profits, they aren’t “businesses” in it’s most technical sense.

So that’s really it.

Do I make a lot of money?

It’s funny how some people actually come up to you and ask. Well, I am not filthy rich, but I do make “enough” money (and not work many hours) to never need to consider a “normal” job. But money is a basic need, a good-to-have, but not exactly the deepest motivator in my life.

Do I personally see myself as an entrepreneur?

I don’t really care much. I prefer to focus on my work, not the name calling. But even if I am, I’m not a conventional one, or a very successful one.

Especially when you put me side by side with giants, like yesterday, when I spoke at the National Youth Entrepreneurship Conference, and met some of them.

I was inspired, and blown away. Admittedly, I felt very small.

Compared to them, I’m really “not there yet”.

But of course, that’s not stopping me from getting ahead in 2008, and have at least ONE “home run”.

2008 Nothing will stop me from having my big ideas make a real big impact. I refuse to swim around in “BETA” forever. This year I’m going all out.

I have already started work on 2 new ventures, but I will only talk about it when its up and running.

You can’t build a reputation on what you are going to do.
~ Henry Ford

So yeah. Will reveal more soon.

Just thought I’d come clean with myself, and with some members of the audience who might follow up with my recent speeches through this blog.

For those who read this in time, and still think I’m worth catching, I’m invited to speaking at an entrepreneur’s meet up on Jan 31st, and MDeC is flying me to Penang to speak alongside ex-Googler turned investor, Colin Wong at an internet entrepreneurship event on Feb 1st.

5 comments on “Confessions I have to make

  1. doink January 21, 2008 10:59 am

    hello,

    I came and saw. =)

  2. Chris January 21, 2008 2:57 pm

    Continue to believe in yourself as you are, and I’ll believe in you too!

    Very bold comment, well done on recognizing something I think many of us dare not do…

  3. saran January 21, 2008 10:48 pm

    🙂

    i just had to say, i take really good candid photos of you – and i’m glad it graces nicely on your blog posts!

  4. kennethlee January 22, 2008 2:45 am

    ur confessions really long.
    if we play truth or dare i rather call you to make it big at touch down. =)

  5. karenbelarek May 6, 2008 10:13 am

    radical honesty. 😉

    even a bigshot would have felt like “a small fry gunning for big dreams” at some point. (if they would only admit!)

    and i found you rather humbling, which is a trait i’ve always admired abt u. if i can see that, im sure others will too. 🙂

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