The morning after YOUTH’09

Bright Lights From Giant Wheels by Solabug.

I leapt out of bed at 7am this morning, wondering what had just happened.

My body, surprisingly, is fine. Blistered, marathoned feet, aching trapezius muscles aside, my mutant healing powers must have took care of the rest.

My mind, on the other hand, was suspicious.

For the past 10 days I’ve survived on 4 to 6 hours of sleep a day, 1 to 2 very irregular meals a day, and called upon more mental and emotional energy than I knew I had.

Felt like I returned from scout camp. Or nazi camp. Ok maybe not nazi camp. I’m guessing people don’t actually return from nazi camp to blog. So yes, a really long and multi-tasking kind of scout camp.

But It wasn’t scout camp, either. It was delivering Malaysia’s Largest Youth Lifestyle Festival, YOUTH’09.

And my mind is still suspicious.

After all the punishing I put myself through, instead of ‘crashing’, I leapt out of bed at 7am, lay around thinking for an hour, did a bunch of chin-ups, and here I am, the only one in the office, blogging like you’re listening.

I know there’s a huge mess to clean up. And loads of post event work with clients, press, partners, volunteers, youths etc to follow up with. The road ahead is long.

Yet, I feel fine.

YOUTH’09 has re-affirmed that everything can be resolved if you’re looking for solutions. It has also re-affirmed to me that the practice of patience, kindness, and compassion always wins.

There’s also so much good stuff to reflect upon, soak in, and tie up in my head. And of course, the business direction for 2009 will be a real adventure.

So why is my mind is suspicious?

I admit, there is a part of me which wonders when I will give up, burn out, or get really beaten. Because really, the journey has just begun.

But I also know that it is this self-doubt, suspicious inner skeptic, which is the real challenge, not anything else. I know it’s this suspicion which prevents people from pushing through to achieve what they intend to. And I know, if I keep moving forward in spite of suspicion, nothing can stop me.

Thank you, friends, youths, volunteers, partners, and team for believing. Couldn’t have done it without you. Will write a proper thank you soon. Will clean up the office now.

Photo by Solabug

8 comments on “The morning after YOUTH’09

  1. TPK January 12, 2009 7:20 am

    No worries Khailee, all of us have done our best, give our best shots for Youth’09.

    Eventhough most of us going separate ways, it doesn’t mean that we can’t reunite for the next one.

    Looking forward for a new challenge, new fight, new adventures and new experience in 2009.

    Have a pleasant year. Cheers! xD

  2. suetmei January 12, 2009 2:10 pm

    heyy. it’s time for you to relax a bit after all the massive work load. sleep longer!

    as for cleanings, take it slow and easy (:

    looking forward to meet you guys again real soon! cheers mate.

  3. Ashleigh January 27, 2009 4:35 am

    I think you have too much of joie de vivre to give up and be beaten! =D

  4. February 7, 2009 6:45 am

    Times like these make you wonder about a lotta of things and such experiences teach us a lot about ourselves. Good work buddy, u should be proud of urself to pull it off.

  5. Science of Identity Foundation February 16, 2009 11:43 am

    It’s always nice to challenge yourself. If you continue on despite all the obstacles and difficulties then you will grow by leaps and bounds. It’s sad to see when people just give up when the going get’s tough – they don’t even give themselves a chance.

    So good luck to you! I hope you keep on keeping on.

  6. Jas April 6, 2009 9:23 am


    I’ve been trying to contact both you and Joel for some time but just couldnt!!!…

    Ok..ok…Im at IT blind…

    But i really need to talk to you about a proposal.

    Its basically about Science Education and im really hoping we can somehow with it out like YOUTHSAYS and Science education (we’re under ministry science technology innovation)

    Call me k..019-3886718 (jasin)

  7. Melayu Boleh April 24, 2009 6:12 pm

    Wow very amazing Picture are showing.

    I hope you keep on keeping on.

  8. melayu-boleh May 22, 2009 4:49 pm

    That’s Too nice, when it comes in india hope it can make a Rocking place for youngster.. hope that come true.

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